I don’t know how a friend should treat a friend, I don’t know who I call a friend.
I suck at being a friend because I have been misused for many reasons.
And by the time I input for the friend, everything is gone.
This just prove how lousy a person am I, I admit.
All I wanted was a decent friend who I can just talk about anything.
Maybe this would be what a girl would say, but then I really like the idea.
Apparently, I forgot this could only happen in a story book.
OH MY, I still very much need to grow up.
Then I tried, confronting to girls in the end they think I like them.
confronting guys they think I gaying.
What’s the limit, where’s the limit?
I still put friends at the first priority list.
I haven try putting myself first.
ppl have been saying, if I dont love myself how to love the others?
I say, only when I see my surroundings happy then Im loving myself because I see my love ones happy.
I remember the smile Jerald Tham had when he was at the loft with his very close pals.
I remember the smile Kar Wei had in the photo when he was having fun at Marina Barrage.
I remember the smile Xiang Yun had when she saw me in the MRT.
I remember the smile Violet had when she saw me at cheers.
I remember the smile Sarah had when I told her I wanna meet her at lot 1.
I remember the smile Soh Eng and Mabel had when ever we go out.
I remember the smile on my kids when they finished their work and rush to me for sign out.
I remember the smile on my kids when I made them understand something and they could do their work alrdy plus a thank you from them.
I remember the smile on Faiz, Intan, Sakura, Qing Wang, Sath, Albert when I said I’m able to make it for the event and when we met they smile.
I remember the smile on Cindy when we just laughed things off like that.
I remember the excitement the Ngee ann Gang had when we managed to meet out.
I remember the smile on juanru, Miguel and Kenneth when we get together too!
I remember the smile tgt with the people mentioned above.
I remember the smile I had ytd when Ian Soo said to grant me three wishes on FB social interview.
I remember the smile I had while talking to fee and faiz on the phone ytd.
I remember the smile I had when I finally get to talk to Kar Wei about our lives for an hour+
I remember the smile I had playing with TKB.
I’m these simple, so long you don’t let me know you are unhappy I wont bug.
Someone said I’m pussy by asking what’s wrong again and again despite the answer is im fine but that’s because something is still wrong.
I got this weird ass habit that when ever a person is not happy I’ll ask the person.
What you call a kay poh basically.
BUT I only ask when i can detect and that you are my friend.
YES, no point asking people to change for me.
I should accept and adapt.
Either I change or I cant expect the person to change.
Aint friends suppose to be mutual?
I just need assurance and I’m feeling insecure.
Now I know why I feel so much for that part of Jennifer’s body.
Working life is fucking alone, I don’t like.
Maybe I dont feel the trust between us.
Maybe I’m just rushing things.
BIG TIME.
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